there's this very new age hippie weird concept called the "language of light"?
apparently it's when you stop thinking about language and meaning and just let everything come to you and like idk "the universe speaks through you" or some shit like that
so it has no fixed alphabet, no fixed phonetic inventory, no fixed grammar, no nothing
it's literally whatever
and every time i just make random sounds to create a word i think about that
i'm like "it's literally the same thing but since now i'm codifying it to mean a specific thing and putting it through a specific grammar it's not the same thing anymore"