ritual || seance sys @dazed@trollian.space

alter intros!!! this is just gonna be a thread of a bunch of them so i can easily add to it bc. we split so easy besties.

hi hello. it is us, the sys tht silvan used to be host of. uhh ce integrated... 2 years ago. and ser, the result of tht integration is now a traumaholder that doesnt front much (we'll get into tht in another post). so you probably wont see vim around. we do have all cir memories though and ykno. care for u all the same.

we know tht our exit from this instance a couple years back was... messy to say the least. i dont think we handled things well. i also think some ppl on this side didnt handle things great either. but we are sorry that things ended like that and promise its not going to happen again.

we have missed mastodon and trollian and everyone here a lot, even some of the ppl we didnt end on great terms with. us rejoining is actually a result of going through a folder of screenshots from here and realizing what we had and how much we missed it.

obviously we realize that things arent going to be exactly the same and that we will all have to get to know each other again (i mean. its been over two years and for our sys, none of the rlly active alters existed back then). but we are excited to do so :3

hey i realize tht this is going to come out of nowhere for yall and i do realize which server im sending this in but i figured it was the easiest way to get this info to all of yall and also. u deserve to know. in the time tht its taken to properly look back and process the things tht occurred during our relationship, redacted sys (my irl bestie who was on skaia. they went by bunnie and keter and rat at the time i believe. maybe also heresy/eric) and i have realized tht siren. is a predator. to put it succinctly and. kindly. and we feel like its something u all deserve to know bc u did interact with them a lot and ik tht some of u were v close with them before everything with trollian v skaia went down.

i dont know. if siren recognizes just how predatory pretty much every aspect of their relationships with trent and ser were, i honestly believe tht theres a chance tht among all the manipulation of us and everyone around us, theyve manipulated themself into believing in the false reality where everything they did was fine or at least far more okay than it was. but either way is dangerous. and i think, knowing tht many of u have trauma, u need to be aware of this and u need to be aware tht in every aspect tht siren fucked up, they know what the correct actions wouldve been. they could talk the talk the entire time, they just didnt follow through. they absolutely took advantage of the trauma tht redacted sys and i have and did things tht werent okay and tht we would not have put up with in proper states of mind, while having had repeated talks abt what wouldve been safe and appropriate instead.

HERE R SPECIFICS PLS BE CAREFUL:

siren constantly manipulated redacted sys and i throughout the relationship and the two of us agree they probably only dated me to be closer with redacted sys/get more attention/have more of an excuse to have a very open poly relationship.

redacted sys and siren ended up moving in together in a town 3 hours from where i live and during that time siren refused to communicate with me and purposefully lead me to believe that i would continue being left out if i joined them at that apartment. they also started looking for more partners on tinder and eventually started pursuing a relationship with a girl on there without ever mentioning it to me. i was then expected to be fine with that and act like everything was good and normal when i came up to visit.

siren was also fully capable of understanding how to act with systems and other alters fronting and would talk abt the proper way to act but proved to not care enough to match their actions to that. they expected our emotionless protector, j, to console them (bc they were jealous of a relationship redacted sys had that they agreed to) when j fronting was a clear indication that we were trauma responding. they also often acted like other alters fronting was an inconvenience and caused serious internal problems for both redacted sys and i.

they were well aware of us both being trauma survivors and our trauma responses as well and yet constantly acted like our trauma responses were a burden for them unless it was something they could exploit. they then took advantage of both redacted sys and my trauma responses and dissociation during...intimate situations in order to push boundaries and attempt to get us to agree to things we were uncomfortable doing.

theres a bunch of shit im leaving out just bc theres too many things but the tldr is:

siren is an awful manipulative person and not at all the person they presented as online. genuinely the biggest thing throughout the relationship was realizing pretty much every aspect of who they said they were on the internet was a lie.